You have been here before you know? This pit of hopelessness. It is just where you go to cry and complain about the things you cannot control. When will you understand that you are not in control of anything beyond your limitations? Yes you do have limitations. Although we believe we can do all things, there are somethings that only God can do. The things that you cannot do, are things that only God’s grace can do!
Let go of the idea that you must plan or control your life. You gave your life away to bend to the will of God when you accepted Jesus. God is in control of your life. Trust that God knows what he is doing at this exact moment in your life.
God is waiting for you to communicate with him on this exact matter. He wants you to unload your thoughts and emotions onto him. Pray to God and tell him what you want him to do for you. Then trust that it will be done. Have faith in the one who created you!
As for that situation that is troubling you, leave it alone. Forget about what is troubling you. Easier said than done but it is necessary to allow God room to move on your behalf. Know that he who started a good work in you will surely finish it. He can only work on it if you leave it alone. You do your part by taking care of what you can. Let him work with what you can’t. His strength is made perfect in our weakness.
Set your mind to do better than you did yesterday everyday. You are more than your mistakes or flaws. You are loving and compassionate. Anger is not your only emotion. Negate it with love and compassion. Sadness is not your only emotion. Negate it with love and compassion. Brokenness is not your only emotional state. Negate it with love and compassion. The same love and compassion the Lord your God has for you. Give yourself love and give yourself a break from the pressures of having it all figured out.
Trust that he is already at work, one day you will understand why you had to go through this. Everything, good and bad works together for those who love the Lord. Instead spend time seeking God and his righteousness. Meditate on the word of God. Get intimate with God through prayer. He loves you and he will not forsake you. Get closer to him. You are his now and forever more.
Father, right now I put my life in your hands. I know that you are in control and I trust that you will do what is best for me. Give me strength in this time to lean on you and not my own understanding. I know you love me and have compassion towards me. I know what you have done for me before and I believe you will do it again.